HELLO INTERNET!
ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE, I'VE ACTUALLY SAT DOWN TO WRITE ABOUT MY SPIRITUAL GROWTH.
I THINK THE LAST TIME I POSTED A ENTRY WAS IN 2014.
HERE'S THE THING. THROUGHOUT THIS YEAR I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT MANY THINGS.
1. HOW IS IT THAT LIFE CAN CHANGE?
2. PEOPLE DIE.
3. LIVING THE GOSPEL IS HARD.
4. THE CHURCH IS PERFECT, BUT THE PEOPLE IN IT AREN'T.
5. MY DREAMS CAN WAIT FOR A LITTLE WHILE.
6. DEPRESSION IS REAL.
I'm not going to write about 1-5. I'll write about 6.
Depression is Real:
I woke up one day and decided that my attitude towards life had to change. Following through hasn't been the easiest thing to do. Having unhealthy relationships don't help. Not being able to help the ones you love. People tell you, "you need to endure to the end.", they say "put your trust on the lord.", they say "be more like Christ.".
here's the thing
people tell you those things but they don't tell you how hard it is to follow the word of Christ. I have not missed a day at church, but sometimes I feel like I should. sometimes I feel like changing wards would make it easier. changing wards would make me feel better. I believe that the church is true but I don't want to believe that one person could represent the church. like I wrote I do go to church.
the lord works in mysterious ways .... i'm praying that something will change.
