Searching for something Greater.

"The fool has said in his heart 'There is no God'" (Psalms 14:1)
Lord, you who understands the why we believe and the why we have faith, tell me that there's something so much greater waiting to happen. Something so great we can't grasp the concept of the why it hasn't come to us yet. I want to believe that there is something greater waiting to happen, but its hard when everything is going so wrong, looking at the positive is so much easier said then done. I know that everyone has doubts, but as of today I have one huge question. I've been waiting for an answer.

Timing is everything that I'm certain of. I could call it fate or destiny, but it also feels like its a mystery. I've had close calls when I have asked myself so many questions, from why to how to what. So many times when I do feel like giving up, to forget the whole enduring to the end. Again its so much easier said then done. I just can't get my head around how this came to be. I thought I was so strong, I thought I knew the reason why? I'm here standing tall waiting for something bad to come to tumble me down.

I know that questioning myself is something that I shouldn't be doing. My heart tells me that there is a God, but my eyes are my worst enemies, they're deceiving me. It's tricky because I am more than certain that I'm standing in all the right places. I know this is where I'm supposed to be. I don't know how life should be lived, but I do know all the right things to make it a righteous one. I may not be perfect but I'm trying to reach perfection by following a holy path. I'm not rich, but I have the most amazing treasure, my most valuable possession The Gospel.

One doesn't truly value the concept of real love when we are focused on all the wrong things. Timing is everything and I'm so tired of saying this quote. I know so many things are yet to come towards my path. Maybe not today or tomorrow but when the time is right. Even if as of right now I feel like I'm all alone in the dark of night.
Lately I've found this quote to be true.
"You will one day stand aside and look at your difficult times, and you will realize that He was always there beside you." - Pres. Thomas S. Monson


"Be not afraid, only believe"(mark 5:36)
I know without a doubt that Our Heavenly Father loves, I know that if you seek you will find. I also know that Perfect love is perfectly patient. So even the fool admits that there is something greater. Lord our God, you exist so truly.