Here's to you!

If I'm ever gone, you'll miss me like I'll miss you. Even if you have doubted our friendship, yes I miss you. If you've ever gotten to know me, you know that I get mad for no reason and that I'll get over it. What I've learn from what I've gone through in life, is that no matter how bad you treated me or much you loved me, I lived, I was there, I smiled. Writing this isn't a sad song, a sad letter, or a sad goodbye, but a hello from me. The hello some people haven't heard, a smile some haven't seen.

Here's to you! My peers:
If I was to ask you, have you lived? Have you smiled? Have you seen the light of day? I sure hope the answer is yes. If not. Say "GOODBYE DEPRESSION" I don't want you anymore, scoot, shut, "I AM BETTER THAN THIS" I cannot control what happens in the world but I could control how I live this life, MY LIFE. So, if I was to ask you again. Have you lived? Have you smiled? Have you seen the light of day? I hope your answer is "Yes, I have lived. Yes, I did smile. Yes I saw the light of day, I got fresh air."

Here's to you, my love:
I've seen the stars, the sky, the moon. I've seen sunlight in your eyes. I remember all the late talks, early morning walks, and afternoon lunch. Have you asked yourself, how did this happen? How did we meet? To be honest I know I have. I've been happy, I've been sad, I've been mad, but mostly I have laughed. I have loved and I've been loved. So, thank you. Just know that in between my whatevers, anyways, anywhos, and okays. I have always loved you.

Here's to you, my family:
I have heard the stories, of who's to remember when's. I've seen the change of each of your hearts, some have been broken, and some have been have been fully taken over. I have plenty of dreams. I have loved fully. I've seen what everyone can do, even if you don't realize your own potential. I've gotten mad at some of you, and no, I don't hate you, in fact I love you, I love all of you. I'm sorry I have been stubborn, I've made a lot of mistakes. I am imperfect. I've gone through life trying to live to the expectations or standards of what you want me to be. I just want to make you proud.

My life has been one over played country song, filled with love, disappointments, and happiness. I know that things happen for us to learn or us to learn. Heartbreaks, failure, love, happiness, sorrow. It all has a purpose. We just don't know it when it happens. We don't know what a blessing is until the world has been destroyed in front of us. We don't know how happy we are until we have hit rock bottom. Forgive your enemies and love your friends. Here's to you, you've made me so happy when it mattered, you've made me cry when I deserved it. Chances are... you probably won't read this, but if you do discover it make sure that everyone could read this page.

But for now, hold me like you mean it. Do it until you believe it, and maybe we will be able to fill that empty part. The time has come at last, to rest my heart and ease my past. I can't take what's not mine. I've chased my dreams and I've stood my ground, but I can't do that anymore.

Here's my last goodbye, until we meet again.